June 9, 2016
One day at a time. Everyday. Everytime. No matter what. That’s how I came back from the first two, and that’s how I am coming back from this one.
I get asked basically every day about my knee, how my knee is feeling, how my rehab is going, when I will be able to play again, about the Olympics, if I will be able to play in the Olympics, when can I play with the Reign again, will I be back to play this season? Quite frankly it can be exhausting. Not to fault anyone who has ever asked me one of those questions, on the contrary I appreciate them greatly, knowing they always come from a place of love, care, concern, and from a desire to see me back on the field doing what I love. But pile them all up together day after day, questions that I can’t answer with certainty, they become daunting.
So what do I do? One day at a time. From the second I heard the snap in Hawaii until this very moment sitting at my computer, one day at time. Get the MRI, see the Doctor, schedule the surgery, do pre-habilitation work with Ben (Goalkeeper Coach with the Reign, MAT Specialist, and a rock I have leaned on everyday throughout these six months), and meet my PT Brent George of G4 Athlete, who is one of the best I have ever worked with. Get the surgery, complete day one of rehab, complete day two of rehab, and you get the picture.
Every session I have done these last six months has a singular focus of what I CAN do. The greatest temptation of rehabbing from an injury such as an ACL tear, is the recovery takes its sweet ole time healing, and you focus on everything you cannot do. Sure, three days after surgery, you CANNOT run, CANNOT play in the Olympics, and you CANNOT snatch an alley-oop out of the air and windmill it down on a six foot rim. And speaking from experience, boy will you be miserable if your focus lies in all the things you cannot do.
I try really hard to focus on what I can do today, gains I can make in each rehab session, approach that with positivity, and with a smile, and try to get a little better everyday. It’s really hard, I can tell you of many days that I failed in that task (so can my fiancé Sera ;-) ) but you have to try, otherwise you will go bonkers!
So I guess this is my advice:
1.) Allow yourself to accept what has happened. Let yourself feel crappy, be sad, be devastated, wonder why me, why now right before the fricken Olympics, and then let it go. It happened, that old ACL, she gone! But, you have a nice shiny one coming that needs a lot of help!
2.) Today matters, that’s it. Not tomorrow, not August, not 3 months from now when you think you should start running, today and today only. Just be your best you today. Let every session be the foundation for the next session, because we all know what happens to some crap house, sitting on some crap foundation.
3.) Enjoy this opportunity, not only in relation to your sport, but also to your life. Get stronger in areas you didn't have time to before (like my pull ups, I can do three now!) I love this game with every bone in my body, but I love other things too! Like Madrid. My family. The lake. My fiancé. Guitar. Friends. Chichi. Ya dig!?
4.) I don’t want to be cliche, but take a step back, there are worse things that could happen to you, worse things that could happen to me, even in an Olympic year, there are plenty of worse things.
But don't worry, I’ll be back soon enough! My Olympic dream is still alive! This blonde ain’t gone!